this is so fuckin stressful bro i dont know i dont know anything im not a scientist im a man who throws weights at the ocean uhh uhhh uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
[ even though he should be losing his fucking mind over how smooth (?) that was, matt's first reaction is one of, uh. nervousness. he's been becoming more and more of a recluse since coming here and hasn't left the house for a while, just - messages people and avoids calls from work telling him off for being late. he is kind of apprehensive about going out in public after getting so accustomed to sleeping or hiding in the river all day.
but this is also very fuckin smooth and he very much wants to on a date with his smooth as fuck boyfriend so he tells himself to try and get over it and stop being a huge stupid baby. ]
ARCHIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yes. Yes YES TELL CROBAT WE'RE GOING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but? bro. theyll serve seafood there fish dead fish archie are u gonna eat a fish
[matt might find crobat actually hopping into wherever he is, sniffing at him with a stupid lil' grin. archie definitely showed it this.]
pffffffffff they have a bunch of stuff i dont even know what i want yet and btw they do growlithe bags as well so if you wanna go home at all you just say and they'll pack it up for us and we can come home and watch some movies or something okay same for me!!
no, it's ok. if i didn't want to go i would have said no, or that we could have stayed home and got something delibird
[ that was on purpose he did that deliberately there's no way they say delibird in this context back home ]
sorry im never out i know its not good lets go out and have a really good date and spend time together and stay out until were tired enough to come home
you said more about how because i was trying to be someone im not i'm only causing harm to myself and you and you kind of did the same thing so we were just fucking up ourselves and each other so we both gotta stop that shit
i wish wailord was here i bet you could lift it now
oh yeah... sorry. it's been a rough couple of days. there hasn't been much in my head other than "what if archie gets ported out again", so it slipped out a bit. i meant all of that, though. every now and then i get scared i'm doing something wrong, or that i'm not good enough, like i'm your subordinate rather than your boyfriend. and every now and then i think you try to be strong and push away what you're feeling, because that's what a good boss would do. if we aren't honest and equal this shit isn't gonna work or whatever. and now that i know we're good back home it feels like im right in thinking like this maybe. uh... maybe this is too real to talk about when youre asking me out on a date in a real fuckin dorable way tho
its okay. a lot of my friends have left recently so i'm worried about you too i just tell myself if you go at least we managed to talk out some of the stuff we needed to. at least i got to tell you how much i love you. we gotta look out for each other as well if i start acting like your boss and pushing everything away again you gotta be like bro you sack of shit stop that and if you start acting like a subordinate instead of my equal i'm gonna i'm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'll kiss your giant dumb face or something but its okay don't feel bad for thinking things out a little more than you feel is necessary there's a LOT between us and anything you think about or want to bring up is valid you're allowed to have feelings and talk about them
don't worry about it you still said yes!! thats what i wanted and if you feel you gotta talk about it then its important an we gotta talk about it!!!!!!!
ok well idk if threatening to kiss me is rly cohesive towards gettin me to not do shit bruh and i feel weird about being in this shitty vulnerable position where you gotta go outta your way to reassure me about my stupid feelings and their validity or whatever because i just wanna suck it up so i can help YOU with YOUR shit rather than the other way around whicCH I KNOW ISNT GONNA WORK WHEN IM TRYING TO MAKE US EQUAL!!!!!! SO IVE GOTTA MAKE THINGS EQUAL AND VALUE MY OWN WORTH AS SOMETHING MORE THAN JUST AN EXTENSION OF YOUR OWN!!!!!!!!! I GOTTA THINK OF MYSELF AS WORTHY OF BEING ALIVE FOR A REASON OTHER THAN WANTING TO MAKE YOUR LIFE BETTER IN THE WAYS THAT I CAN BRO!!!!!!!!!!!!!111111111111 BRO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MY FEELINGS AND SELF-WORTH ARE A COMPLEX SPIDERWEB OF MISHMASHING IDEALS AND INSECURITIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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uhh
uhhh
uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
B!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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ohhh h h h h it mustve been the right one
theres
something in his pocket......................
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????
crobat booked a table for us at 'for the halibut' tonight at 8 ?? ?
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but this is also very fuckin smooth and he very much wants to on a date with his smooth as fuck boyfriend so he tells himself to try and get over it and stop being a huge stupid baby. ]
ARCHIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yes. Yes
YES
TELL CROBAT WE'RE GOING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but? bro.
theyll serve seafood there
fish
dead fish
archie
are u gonna eat a fish
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pffffffffff they have a bunch of stuff
i dont even know what i want yet
and btw
they do growlithe bags as well
so if you wanna go home at all you just say and they'll pack it up for us and we can come home and watch some movies or something okay
same for me!!
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if i didn't want to go i would have said no,
or that we could have stayed home and got something delibird
[ that was on purpose he did that deliberately there's no way they say delibird in this context back home ]
sorry im never out i know its not good
lets go out and have a really good date and spend time together and stay out until were tired enough to come home
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cant pick up a weight and break your arms cause you think you could, right??
thanks for being honest
i dont remember if i told you but i was real proud when you told me whats what a couple weeks ago!!
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whatd i say a couple weeks ago again
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i wish wailord was here i bet you could lift it now
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there hasn't been much in my head other than "what if archie gets ported out again", so it slipped out a bit.
i meant all of that, though.
every now and then i get scared i'm doing something wrong, or that i'm not good enough, like i'm your subordinate rather than your boyfriend. and every now and then i think you try to be strong and push away what you're feeling, because that's what a good boss would do.
if we aren't honest and equal this shit isn't gonna work or whatever.
and now that i know we're good back home it feels like im right in thinking like this maybe.
uh...
maybe this is too real to talk about when youre asking me out on a date in a real fuckin dorable way tho
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i just tell myself if you go at least we managed to talk out some of the stuff we needed to. at least i got to tell you how much i love you.
we gotta look out for each other as well
if i start acting like your boss and pushing everything away again you gotta be like
bro
you sack of shit
stop that
and if you start acting like a subordinate instead of my equal i'm gonna
i'm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i'll kiss your giant dumb face or something
but its okay don't feel bad for thinking things out a little more than you feel is necessary
there's a LOT between us and anything you think about or want to bring up is valid
you're allowed to have feelings and talk about them
don't worry about it you still said yes!! thats what i wanted
and
if you feel you gotta talk about it then its important an we gotta talk about it!!!!!!!
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and i feel weird about being in this shitty vulnerable position where you gotta go outta your way to reassure me about my stupid feelings and their validity or whatever because i just wanna suck it up so i can help YOU with YOUR shit rather than the other way around
whicCH I KNOW ISNT GONNA WORK WHEN IM TRYING TO MAKE US EQUAL!!!!!!
SO IVE GOTTA MAKE THINGS EQUAL AND VALUE MY OWN WORTH AS SOMETHING MORE THAN JUST AN EXTENSION OF YOUR OWN!!!!!!!!!
I GOTTA THINK OF MYSELF AS WORTHY OF BEING ALIVE FOR A REASON OTHER THAN WANTING TO MAKE YOUR LIFE BETTER IN THE WAYS THAT I CAN BRO!!!!!!!!!!!!!111111111111
BRO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
MY FEELINGS AND SELF-WORTH ARE A COMPLEX SPIDERWEB OF MISHMASHING IDEALS AND INSECURITIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i love you
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bro!!!!!!! you're a human being!!!!!!! of course you're complex!!!!!!!! you're a smart human person!!
i love you too!!!!!!!!!!!
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let's go on that date crobat set up right now instead of later
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you wanna hang out with carvanha and sharpedo in the river?